About Me

My biological mother was a chronically homeless, mentally ill, drug addict. Her disease touched the lives of everyone arousonynd her.

I am a mother of two daughters and a current Grad Student at USC  (#FightOn) working toward my MSW. Just as my mother’s situation changed the course of my life, I am hoping my choices have an impact on theirs.Addiction and Mental Illness have stigmas that prevent people from feeling dignified. These stigmas also create barriers to treatment. Stigmas don’t help people. The best way to kill a stigma is to expose it to sunlight.

I started this on February 18th, 2006 as a way to share my experiences and explain poverty and homelessness to my friends. I grew up in the beautiful and affluent city of Arcadia California where nice people did not talk about mental illness and poverty.

It is important that you understand that the views and opinions expressed here are my personal thoughts (for recreational use only) and do not reflect any employer of agency I connect with (past, present or future).

I what I do.
I also understand that poverty is not an issue that can be addressed and solved if society continues to pretend it doesn’t exist and that poverty only happens to bad people.

3 thoughts on “About Me

  1. All homeless folks be transferred to closed military bases
    Be fed clothed and live in sanitary condition. Must stay on base till cleared to be out. Or transferred for additional help

  2. I happened onto your site here while researching Ascensia for a friend of mine who is a client there. I myself have been in free fall ever since I gave up my single apartment in Glendale to help my late best friend in 2002. Many who have been homeless at one time, or who are now homeless, are often drug and alcohol free and do have incomes……we go against type. But since the local papers have only started to address the problems of high rents and destruction of affordable housing, with apartments converted to condos or razed to make way for malls and offices recently-time has been frittered away that was needed to do something about this national crisis. As in 35-40 years of opportunity and lives wasted. I will be 60 years old soon. When I was growing up in this county, the only homeless I saw were runaway kids and those fleeing the draft who had to keep moving. The rate of housing has never climbed up to meet the needs of all the millions who have arrived here since the 60’s and early seventies. Back then, rents were cheap and plentiful. You had options and upward mobility over time. After 1980 though, forget it ! Massive influxes of people came. Supply never matched the demand, to this day ! I’m very glad that Measure H passed, yet I can’t help but fear it’s too little, too late. This ought to have been started in 1980, at the latest. In recent years I remember funds for affordable housing in Glendale being stolen, and the developer himself took it and nothing was done that I’m aware of. My plan as a homeless person, is to move far from CA. Until then, I remain a cautious urban camper in the San Gabriel Valley, under the local radar. Did you ever read about what happened in Glendora in 2014,when a local senior apartment community lost it’s subsidy status(thanks to city fathers)and the rent went from $200.00 a month, to $900.00 monthly, in 30 days ! I never saw this in the L.A. Times or Daily News, but only in the San Gabriel Tribune. The residents DID protest, but with Jeff Kugel leading the way, the city shut down the program and up to now, won’t reinstate it. What affordable housing we had here, like the Sandia Apartments, at $525.00 monthly with utilities paid, were bulldozed last year to make way for expensive townhomes. More of these same KINDS of housing are going up. The Avalon, for example. $2,225.00 monthly for the starter units. So the local homeless many disabled and elderly, suffer silently. If I’d wanted to stay in town I could never afford to. The apathy toward any not owning a house, or being able to swing market rents, is incredible. There is a callous philosophy, of if you aren’t born well off, and can’t make it with TODAY’S rules for renting, owning, and the economy, too bad go away and drop dead. Go to jail, or a rest home. Don’t create enough housing to even out demand, or we will lose our six-figure commissions in real estate deals. There was a local scandal in 2000, when a veteran who was homeless, went to the Housing Authority in Glendale and the officials there told him they would do nothing for him(it serves the foreign born, mostly) I have seen myself going there. This poor man could stand no more, and went up five stories to the roof, leaped off and was killed on the concrete below. If one visits the Southern California Presbyterian Homes complexes in town, no Americans are there. Huge places, with thousands in each building…..sorry, but all of them cater ONLY to Middle Easterners, who are quick to claim persecution if you bring up this fact. I don’t know exactly what the city of Glendale gives to Ascencia shelter, but it doesn’t look like much. I spoke to Chris when I was there. He agrees the city just is NOT MOTIVATED to do what it takes to house those who need it. Money goes to glitzy street scenes,like those giant flowers on Brand. And many buildings that can be rehabbed and placed for housing, just sit and ROT for years, finally getting razed to make, guess what ??? My friend can;’t get anyone at that shelter to process his paperwork and take him to see what housing there is. I truly hope there is substance to what Mayor Eric Garcetti promised about Measure H and HHH. But I won’t hold my breath,. Cities are relying on the police to enforce silent endurance of the status quo. Anything but handling the housing shortage properly. I dread what a major war or crash of the dollar will do to our civil liberties, such as they are today. WE are ripe for calamity as an overstressed, out of balance nation. Thank you for letting me vent.

  3. Wow. Thank you for sharing your information. I agree, Homelessness is one of the ONLY taboos in ‘Modern American Society.’ Most people who are homeless are so deeply in SHAME that they keep it a a secret, if they possibly can. Sadly, there are many out there who prey on the homeless. A woman revealing that she is homeless easily sparks the attention of predators of many kinds. The words “I am homeless” are admitting that you are incredibly vulnerable, for a man OR a woman. I know what it’s like to be homeless in LA. I spent a period of six months there. First, I thought I was joining a movement to help the homeless, just ‘trusting in the Universe’ that I would be safe. Sadly, the comment was very ostracizing. I went through multiple rapes, being robbed of almost every single possession including my one good bra (very hard to replace a size 44 DD, what with bras being very expensive, period!) and being abused and mistreated by a man who eventually got me pregnant, then assaulted me physically, while at the same time rubbing his relationship with a younger, thinner girl in my face constantly. I went through physical torture and emotional agony. There ARE good people on the street. I met quite a few. Most have a lot of trauma from their own difficult lives, and some are really horrible people who prey on the other homeless, and create a reign of terror for those who sleep on the street, seeking ‘hiding spots’ out of sight of said predators and cops.

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